Years of Intoxication

My Thoughts on Years of Intoxication

"Years of Intoxication" is a wild ride, a tangled web of obsession, toxicity, and, ultimately, a shot at redemption. This novel isn't for the faint of heart; it dives deep into the messy, often painful, dynamics of a relationship built on shaky foundations. I went in knowing it would be angsty, but I wasn't quite prepared for the emotional rollercoaster that followed.

First Impressions

The initial chapters threw me right into the deep end. He Gu's devotion to Song Ju Han, a famous singer who treats him more like a convenient object than a partner, is both captivating and infuriating. I immediately wanted to root for He Gu to find his worth and escape the cycle of abuse. Song Ju Han's behavior is undeniably awful, and I found myself questioning what He Gu saw in him. Still, I was intrigued to see how their dynamic would evolve.

What Works Well

Despite the toxicity, there's a compelling story here. I appreciated the character growth, particularly He Gu's journey toward self-discovery and independence. Watching him slowly realize his worth and start to build a life outside of Song Ju Han was incredibly satisfying. The shift in power dynamics, where Song Ju Han finally recognizes his feelings and desperately tries to win He Gu back, is a highlight. The author does a good job of portraying Song Ju Han's internal struggle and gradual change, even if it's a long and frustrating process. I also found the supporting characters to be well-developed and engaging, adding depth to He Gu's world as he begins to open himself up to new relationships.

Areas of Concern

The novel definitely has its flaws. The first half can be repetitive and emotionally draining, with the constant cycle of abuse and forgiveness testing my patience. While Song Ju Han does eventually show remorse and attempt to change, his past actions are difficult to overlook. I can understand why some readers were disappointed with the ending, feeling that He Gu deserved someone who hadn't caused him so much pain.

Final Verdict

"Years of Intoxication" is a flawed but ultimately captivating novel. It's a story about toxic love, self-discovery, and the possibility of change. While the relationship between He Gu and Song Ju Han is far from ideal, the novel explores the complexities of human emotions and the challenges of breaking free from unhealthy patterns. If you're willing to dive into a dark and angsty romance with morally grey characters, "Years of Intoxication" might just leave you feeling…intoxicated.